Mid-week day off

So I had a really bad day on Tuesday. I decided to take today off to get my thoughts together. Well halfway throughout the day I decide to go out to my friends house so my dogs can run around. I stayed a long time, probably well past my welcome. My friends husband cooked us a taco dinner. He is a very nice man. He showed me how to drive a quad. We raced and he kicked my ass. I had so much fun. We rode until it got to dark. We rode through the woods so I got stuck a couple of times but overall I did very well. Before the quad ride. Val and I rode horses for a couple of hours. I nearly got bucked off because my horse was have anxiety since another horse got out of his sight. I am getting much better at riding. Enjoy the pictures. If anyone wants to hang out sometime let me know. I like to get out of the house.

A while

So it has been a while since I have posted. It has been a hectic week. I have been very busy trying to figure out my life. This weekend was a nightmare. I went to weight watchers on Saturday expecting to be 5 pounds down because Wii fit said so. Instead I did not lose anything. I ate a salad and a piece of pizza for lunch. Two hours later I was in the restroom. I will leave the rest to your imagination. Later that even I again had to visit the restroom and I actually fainted. I hit my head really hard and bruised my right side. I then slept the next day. I think I am finally over the illness but who knows. On the plus side I have a job lead and hopefully it will be worth my while. I also won a $50 starbucks card from 710 Kiro. The card came in the mail on Monday. WHOOHOO.

Surprising Weekend

I managed to get the fact that I am losing my job out of my mind. On Friday Steve and I went out to dinner. We have been trying to go out once a week. We went to Ruby Tuesday's. It was so good I had the white bean chili (4 points) and salad bar (9 points). We discussed my job status over dinner and we have decided that if I get offered a job we will move. I am torn because I do want to be closer to my family but I love the outdoors and this is the best state for that.

On our way home Steve needed to stop at Wal-Mart to pick up more allergy medicine. We got there just as a shipment came in and we found Wii Fit. And thank God we had extra money to buy Wii fit. I love to exercise after I get off work but I have been missing out since I have been working out longer and my apartment gym closes at 10:00. I played for 45 min Friday and Saturday and 30 min today. I love the game. It is a great alternative to going to the gym.

On Saturday I went to weight watchers and broke the news to all my friends there. They are going to keep their eyes open for me. Steve and I went to the grocery store and spent way to much because he needed some perscriptions and I took him off my medical since he qualifies for his own February 1st. For the rest of the night I cooked and we played games. Did I mention Steve is the best he cleaned the house on Friday so I would not have to worry about it. This meant so much to me since I am so stressed out right now. He is a great guy I wish more people saw that in him.

On Sunday Steve had to work so I went to my friends house we did a small hike (nature walk). We walked for about 2 hours. Then we rode hourses for about an hour. Samson and Lazarus loved it. They like to go out there and get off the leash. I had to give them a bath when we got home because Sam thought it was fun to roll around in horse poop. They did not want to leave. Si I am wrapping up my weekend by cleaning dishes and folding laundry.

Strength

God Grant me the Strength to be there for my team. I hope I am strong enough today. I try to put it out of my mind so I can make them feel better but it is getting harder and harder each day. I am putting in applications all over the US. Maybe this will be a chance to make more money. I want to move to Cleveland but I do not know if it will come through. Yesterday I had two people complaining about random things at work. I could not believe they were complaining about little things. So I nicely reminded them that they would not have to worry about it as of 08/03. I was trying to be funny. Well I need to start to head in. Put on a strong face.

Options

Ok my glass is half full. I met with a senior VP today and we discussed my options. I was VERY forward. I let them know what I have done and what I offer. We have an option to transfer to a branch within Key or to move to Buffalo or Cleveland. Unfortunately there are no guranteed positions and we may have reinterview to keep our jobs or get similar jobs. I am ahead of the game and already told them I want a job in Cleveland and to do the same job role which they are hiring people in Cleveland right now. Please pray for guidance for me.

In a breath your life can change forever

I was called to an emergency meeting this morning and heard this news http://blogs.thenewstribune.com/business/2009/01/13/keybank_will_close_its_tacoma_call_cente. So now I have to see where God puts me. Let the journey begin.

I deserve it

If you know me, you know that I am one of the cheapest persons you will meet. I hate buying things for myself and Steve jokes that when we go to Wal-Mart I go straight to the cheapest Clarence rake which is $3. If I look at anything higher he jokes with me. No matter how good we are with money I still have a tendency to find the great deal. Well I have been needing some good workout shoes so today I found a steal at Big 5 sporting goods. They are a pair of Starters that are normally $79.99. I got them for $18.99. I was so excited. So I walked around the mall more and saw Bath and Body Works was having a huge sale. Now I have a ton of lotions but no lip gloss. So I bought some hand soap and two lip glosses for only $9. So even though I did get some great deals I really did spend more on myself then I ever would have. I hate spending money but it helps that I did get a bonus for last month YEAH.

We are ok

No water hit us thank goodness. Since we were told to evacuate I stayed at a friends home. She lives on a farm and has horses and a lot of dogs. Our dogs loved it. She encouraged me to walk the dogs without a leash and they had a great time. They did not want to leave. It is wonderful to have great friends. When we got home we happy to see the water has gone down. This morning I went down there and it has dropped 26 feet already. We can walk on the path again. That is amazing since it was up about 30 feet just 24 hours ago. There were some damaged homes but from what I heard no one has died because of the floods. Floods are actually a great thing since they make soil rich for farmers. There is a point for everything that happens even if it seems tragic. I can not wait to walk on the path again.

Waiting to evacuate

There has been a lot of flooding in the Pacific Northwest. I received a call from my apartment complex today advising me to come home as we may have to evacuate soon. They have evacuated one building so far. I quickly came home to make sure my puppies were safe. I have been working from home but the water has risen a lot. Total they are expecting 35 feet. We live right next to the river. We got a notice to prepare to evacuate and now we are waiting on their word to go. We are going to stay at a friends house with the puppies. So please pray for us I know we will be fine though. Pray for all the families. Here are some pics below. This is the path right behind my apartment that I walk on.

Have to share

I know I am on a budget and in the winter fruits and veggies are not fresh and too expensive. I really like fruits and veggies but I have a hard time eating them in the winter. An example is I bought a watermelon at a farmers market for $4 (a small one) when I got home it was rotten in the inside. The same thing happened to the cucumber. So this week I was on a mission to get my fruits and veggies in each day. I picked up some frozen pineapple ($2), frozen strawberries ($2), and some orange juice ($2.38). I made a morning smoothie with 1/2 cup pineapple, 3 strawberries, and a cup of orange juice. This is 4 servings of fruits and veggies. Let me say it is AWESOME. I add a little sweetner because the tartness can get overwhelming due to the orange juice. I am going to try to add frozen veggies next week. BTW I got 5 breakfasts for $6.38 so it is healthy and fits my budget. Just a thought to anyone looking to get healthier. I will share my tricks with you as I find them. I still have about 100 more pounds to lose but I will get there. Love you all.

Fat Ignorance

So Steve and I were having a good Friday morning we are almost done with the thing we have been working on, my team hit goal, and it was a sunny day out. Since we were out early Steve wanted to go to the donought shop. This is a rare visit because I do not eat donoughts and there is no point to go for one person. So I decided to get a donought, the first one in months and wouldn't you know there would be some ignorant person at the shop. As I was walking out with my coffee in one hand and the keys in another (Steve was holding a bag of 4 donoughts) a old guy got out of his 1960's truck. He mummbled something in our direction and without thinking I said what was that. He then asked Did you leave some for the rest of us? Without understanding what he said I said yes we did. He then said "Good Girl" one I hit the car, I turned around and said have a great day Asshole. Now I have lost 40 pounds but I have a lot more to go. One of the only times I cheat there had to be someone to catch me. Being fat is now the new target. It use to be on race, religion, or sexuality. Now being fat is looked at in a bad light. I wish people knew what the medical reasons are behind me being fat but it really is no ones business. Please just treat me like a human. I do not fit the stereotype of lazy, dumb, and/or depressed. I hike MOUNTAINS, exercise daily, eat right, work 50+ hours a week, my home is almost always clean, and have a MBA. The stereotype needs to be banished and we need to treat large people with dignity and respect. Anyway I rambled engough have a great.

Whoohoo We did it

Finally my team I have been working with for 8 months finally hit all of their goals. It has been a tough battle with lots of work but we did it. I can not even describe how difficult it was to redevelop a staff of 18 people to hit goal but it was; trust me.

My lawyer finally took all of my paperwork to file on Friday we just need our tax forms sent to her. The IRS sucks. They really hate to help people. I hope no one has to deal with them. Things are looking up but I still have a TON of stress. I am sufering from randon panick attacks where I will just sit and cry and can not breath. I know I am being irrational but I can not stop. Hopefully they go away soon.

New Years Celebration

I guess you know you are older when your idea of bringing in the New Year by watching fireworks.....ON TV. I have been in a poor mood for some time. I guess it is because of all the stress I am under between work and home. It feels as if I can not get ahead on the house work and my own work. As soon as I finish the dishes there are more to do. As soon as the laundry gets done there is more to fold. I can not find the energy to rent the rug doctor to do the carpets. I like to clean the carpets once every 2-3 months but it has been 4 since the last cleaning. Hell I haven't even scrubbed the floor in a month. So on New Years I sat watching TV with Steve hoping that 2009 would be a lot more calm. Steve is so great. He tried to cheer me up with his silliness that a lot of my family does not get to see because Steve use to have a temper and it is hard for people to look beyond the past. Hopefully one day my family and Steve will get along. I hope 2009 will be great but right now I need to get the laundry, dishes, and trash done.